dad!

Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeee my dad reads my blog! ok, im proudda that... how many of YOUR DADDY's actually bother to read yours? *hehehe* kekeke *runs away*

Love you daddy!!!
nate

Roadside musicians

I was walking back from the library yesterday when someone called out "Hey nat!" I turned to see a few guys sitting by the roadside; one of them playing a guitar - his name's Sammat *thai*

Sammat: nat!
me: hey mat!
Sammat: come, come!! play music for us!
me: er... OKAY!

I ended up sitting there for the next 15 minutes showing them how to play 'The heart of worship' and doing a performance... haha~ I did JM's "My stupid mouth" and they totally loved it.

Isnt life so much more fun when you're spending time with others? Yeah, I think so!

nate leads church service

Okay, it was the FIRST time I've led worship in church from START to END - literally. We started at 10:55am and ended at 11:25am. WOW now that was quick. Was it good? Hmmm... I'll leave that to others to comment!

We began and ended with "Holy Holy Holy". There were 2 short sermonettes and a short conclusion by me before the closing song.

I almost fumbled on the benediction... 2 mins before benediction, shimona and i were talking with me being the nervous one!

nate: eh... whats the benediction ah... lemme see... i can't remember the starting! i can only remember '...let his face to shine upon you now and forever more... Amen!'

shimona: errr *thinking*

nate: oh dear...

shimona: Ahh! I think it goes like "The lord bless you and keep you..."

nate: AHH!!! YES!! YESSS!!! ok ok ok ok!

Well... i spoke and i spoke and i spoke about the sermonettes and drew a conclusion... dragged a big - cuz i forgot what shimona said. hahaha! it finally came to me...

nate to congregation *hands lifted*: May the *thinks quickly and just blurts out* Lord God Almighty *thinks quickly without pausing* bless you and keep you *PHEW!* may He make his face to shine upon you now and forever more, Amen *BIG PHEW*

:D my experience! hehe in a nutshell!

nate leads church service

Okay, it was the FIRST time I've led worship in church from START to END - literally. We started at 10:55am and ended at 11:25am. WOW now that was quick. Was it good? Hmmm... I'll leave that to others to comment!

We began and ended with "Holy Holy Holy". There were 2 short sermonettes and a short conclusion by me before the closing song.

I almost fumbled on the benediction... 2 mins before benediction, shimona and i were talking with me being the nervous one!

nate: eh... whats the benediction ah... lemme see... i can't remember the starting! i can only remember '...let his face to shine upon you now and forever more... Amen!'

shimona: errr *thinking*

nate: oh dear...

shimona: Ahh! I think it goes like "The lord bless you and keep you..."

nate: AHH!!! YES!! YESSS!!! ok ok ok ok!

Well... i spoke and i spoke and i spoke about the sermonettes and drew a conclusion... dragged a big - cuz i forgot what shimona said. hahaha! it finally came to me...

nate to congregation *hands lifted*: May the *thinks quickly and just blurts out* Lord God Almighty *thinks quickly without pausing* bless you and keep you *PHEW!* may He make his face to shine upon you now and forever more, Amen *BIG PHEW*

:D my experience! hehe in a nutshell!

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Featured Friend of the week!

Heya dear readers of nate's blog! I have started a "Featured Friend of the week" column where I will feature YOU! My friends, on my blog! Picture and a short something about you! haha Watch out!

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Friend of the week for June 20 2005

Danielle Imaru Hoshigoki Tan Ying

Ok. Danni is a hell of a well... can be damn irritating girl who is fun, loves to shop a lot, spends money like it grows on trees and she models. She's pretty tall leh... taller than me and she's reallie skinny in my opinion... and she says she's fat *whats wrong with all you girls?! u always think you're fat!*

Notice that she's got this really amazingly long name... and I thought my name was long... dang! Two surnames somemore! Wah! okok Hmm... oh yeah.. GUYS!! SHE'S SINGLE and she's 18 :P SO... well, if u tink ur cute and if u think she's cute and she might like you... mmmm. k not saying anymore :) she's got braces too! haha

She just did her hair and i think she looks heaps better than before. Well, thats a big smile for the camera's for this week's featured friend of the week!
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Next week, a guy will be featured! Following by another girl... watch this space!

Music talk...

SHE -> came to MC to give talks on music... guess what? Samuele Bacchiochi fan... super conservative and *quoted* "Hymns are the only type of songs that have real depth... they should be the only songs sung in church.

"... our churches aren't growing because they are singing the new contemporary choruses which are so shallow

"... the new songs lack melody, unlike the hymns like *she sings a hymn*

"... will you compromise holiness and what is right in God's sight to attract new believers to church? (answering a question about using contemporary music being used in church as that type of music reaches the young adult group)"

OKay, 'nuff said.

mysterious illness?

my suitemate and i have been having weird hmm... stool. we think that it's the water here so we're gonna do an experiment. we're gonna go down to town and buy us about 20 litres of water and not drink the water that is supplied in school to see if we get better.

we've been really lethargic of late and going to the toilet has actualy been quite a chore, not to mention... a stink.

mysterious illness huh? ugh...

Priceless photographs

What happens when you've got a priceless photograph? I wanna put it online so much! Okay... I shall but the faces have been blurred to protect the innocent!

Terence Wong, Mr Rrrrrrromantic!

"They call me Mr. Romantic, say me fantastic, touch me on de back and call me Mr. Ro....Romantic... smooth, just like the silk, soft and cuddle me up like a quilt..."

Mr Romantic they say... Hmm! My friend Terence won a 'Mushy letter' writing competition - okay, so I helped but i was kinda surprised that it won! Man... S'porean guys HAVE TO LEARN TO BE MORE ROMANTIC! Simple letter like that can win? Gee! But Congrats to TERENCE! WOO! MR ROMANTIC! heehee

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The winning letter (Neo to Trinity):
*words in italics are mine

Trinity,
As I write, fleeting images of you are flashing in my mind. My pulse quickens as I think of you - your lovely eyes, your smile, your demeanor. How I long to be yours and yours alone! To caress you in my arms, to feel you skin-on, to touch your face and gaze into eyes of whom all of my love has been channeled to.

The Oracle said that I will know when the right person comes along and I know that you are the one to fulfil that prophecy. If only time will quicken so that you will see this fiery passion that's meant to be shared by us both!

Do you feel the way that I do? The tingling sensation whenever we meet, the fleeting glaces we take at each other, oh how I wish for us to be together, even if it will be for a day or an hour... I will surely feelsatisfied just to be able to call you my own and to share the love with you.
I want you to know how much I look forward to the countless hours we will spend talking. It seems like I've known you forever and I honestly can't imagine life without you now. There will be no looking back, no second thoughts and no further regrets. I love you and only you ... and that our love will only grow stronger.

Sometimes life hits you with unexpected things that will take you totally by surprise. All I can say is you're the best life has given me and your capacity for love, caring, and understanding never ceases to amaze me. I've truly been blessed by finding you and I'll never let you go.

Forever

Neo"

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Congrats bro! :) May you be a Rrrromantic for life! :D

life

i've learnt in my horrible 21 years of what you'd call 'life' these few things. i hope you can learn from them instead of learning them the hard way. you might find it kinda crude but that's just me. i'm a theologian and i'm proud of it too.

1. treasure life, friends, special someones - they dont come by twice in a lifetime, only once. they're like tissues u have in a pack... once you flush em, they're gone, but if you keep em in your pocket despite a little booger on it once in a while, they'll be there when you need em most. i've learnt it the hard way... trying to put my hand down the bowl to get it back or... whatever's left of it.

2. look on the bright side. sure, it's so difficult. almost impossible. just look at the bright side... you'll die young if you dont.

3. enjoy life. life comes but only once and if you don't take the time to enjoy it as it comes along, will your life be full of serious only events?

4. smile. it's just lame to not smile. people look at you and think 'sucker... bitch... freak... asshole... sad-kid... did't his mom ever teach him how to smile...' that's just to name a few. now, smile.

5. get on with life - im trying to do this now. things won't always go your way... or make you happy. you screw up big time once in a while and you feel like shit. you really do - and you don't have to try it to know - i'm there and I'm telling you. if you don't get on, you'll just stay where you are and rot! ever watch csi? Seen the rotting people? want that to be you? nah-ah... don't think so, didn't think so. lets get on to number 6.

6. study hard. it's boring and no one likes it. hell! you don't even really use a lot of what you learn when you get out to work - but!!!! it'll take you places and get you the jobs where you won't need to know what you learnt in school. okay, that was kinda tough to swallow, but, STUDY HARD! Aim for A's.

7. when in doubt, just do it anyway!!! NOT. Think it over and carefully plan your approach to do something. if there's a doubt, there's gotta be something troubling you and its always worth to think it over before commencing - whatever it is.

8. be yourself. people hate losers and fakes. be real, be yourself.

9. don't hate. love. make-love, not war? WRONG! Love, don't just go out making love... you'll probably die of STD's... or a broken penis if you're a guy. yuck. If you hate, people will hate you and when people hate you, you're done for. Make friends... share the love, don't hate. you'll live longer too.

10. read, digest, understand and follow my 9 principles of life.

the runs... running running *stinky*

i woke up this morning feeling all normal. 6am in the morning. drove Pappu out to muak lek to get a rose and chocolates for his girlfriend (first month together). so i got back and then it happened. after class at 10pm, my stomach started feeling all weird - i hadn't eaten anything yet... so instead of heading to the caf, i scooted back to my room and... diarrhoea. How nice.

Been having the runs since then! Im so glad my afternoon class went by without an incident.

9 times so far and still counting. ugh... this is torture!

The runs.. RUN AWAY UGH!!! GARRRRRR!

Progress for a program!

Well... a green light was given for "can anyone hear me?" and here's an ad... well, sorta, if the program really kicks off, this'll be the ad that will be on blogs n websites!!!

Zombified!

Well... i woke up ready to go to class - but i'm in my room now. I missed my first class because my head hurts like i've never felt before! WOW! that's one word to describe it.

Took a few panadol extra pills and an hour later i'm here online, going to take my bath and head for my next class. At least my teacher knows i had a throbbing headache - i called him on his cellphone and he said he'll go thru the things over lunch with me so i woulnd't miss out! *yay* what a great teacher!

Alright - so 48hours without sleep. What can I say? It was a good experience - i'll probably never do it again.

Good night

to end it all :)

to end it all
pain n suffering in the world
and all that's in me
to ease the pain
and feel for once ecstacy that you've craved
to feel for a split moment
adrenaline rushing through your veins
the thrill of not knowing
not knowing what will happen
how long it will take;
if it will be quick

to run away is to be a loser
to stay and fight is to be a fool
which would you be in a world this cruel
is there nothing left?
to hold on forever is foolishness
to give up is a sign of weakness
why struggle any longer
with the battle of words and honor?

if the sun is soon to set
to bring a blanket of darkness over you
to silence the cries of a little child
to bring peace for a few hours in the world
what more you?

to be thinking of another
and yet not thinking of your brother
to hold onto something dear
and never utter a word about it
useless is one who is just that
and toils in his misery
end it he should and quickly too!

to end it all.

- anonymousa

Now wasn't that interesting.

This is Yvonne the "monyet" or "monkey" -she's got a rubber face - quite ugly so i never put it up here! hehehe She's got a sister Yvette who's older than her but then... more goofy than Yvonne... weird right? haha Oh well... :D She's the first of a whole lot of friends i'll be introducing to the world on my blog in days, weeks and months to come!

34hours 10minutes 32seconds and counting

The sandman has yet to get me - i still feel pretty energetic despite not having slept int he past 24hours 10minutes and 32 seconds (ok fine... time is ticking while i write this so its not THAT accurate).

Still feel like i have enough in me to last a few basketball games later :D woohoo~ will i last till 40hours? we shall see! I'll post a pic of me when i'm wasted...

the "near fainting" experience!

it's 9:20 and i've been awake for a good 27hrs 20mins and some 31seconds as i'm typing this. i went to play basketball just now and i had the coolest experience ever! you've gotta try it out one day to know what i'm talking about - brink of exhaustion and you play basketball - i went for a layup, a 360 layup and for a split second, i felt like i was flying! For real! I WAS FLYING!!!... until i hit the ground splat flat of course... then i realised that i was dreaming. But it did feel good nonetheless!

trudged for breakfast and sat at a lonely long table then a fren came up *dinah* and sat with me for breakfast. it's one of those days when you wanna just be so alone and someone plops down next to you - first thing in my mind is like "ugh... why her... and why now?!" then second thing in my mind is like "but hey... someone actually hopes you'll let him/her sit next to you for breakfast... COOOOOOOL". So i say, "hey! morning, have a seat" and i reach out and pull out the chair.

we end up chatting about church issues and how our church is kinda behind time... oh well, lets not get into that.

my near fainting experience... one word... AWESOME!

without precious s l e e p

wonder how it feels like to lie in bed and not sleep? hehe - i just experienced that so for the record, i've been up since 6am, 11th June 2005 and it's 7:39am, 12th June 2005 right now. life is good, excellent and nothing can go wrong :) now, can it?

i wonder how long i'll last without sleep. i just read that after the first 24 hours, you'll start to feel very very drained. Moving on to 36 hours, one can start hallucinating and moving on, your mind will start to shut down while you're awake - sounds awesome :P haha

I'll see how long I last. So right now it's 25hours 46 minutes - there abouts.

signing out - natedawg

Forever Love

This song means so damn much to me. If you don't understand it - it's in chinese han yu pin yin. It just means so much to me... it does.

Ai ni bu shi yin wei ni de mei er yi
Wo yue lai yue ai ni mei ge yan shen chu dong wo de xin
Yin wei ni rang wo kan jian Forever cai liao jie zi ji
Wei lai zhe xie ri zi yao hao hao zhen xi

Ai wo you xie tong ku you xie bu gong ping
Ru guo zhen de ai wo bu shi li suo dang ran de jue ding
Gan dao ni de hu xi zai wo er bian xiang wei feng shen qi
Wen rou de an fu wo de bu an ding
Suo yi wo yao mei tian yan jiu ni de xiao rong Wo... duo me zi ran

Forever Love..Forever Love
Wo zhi xiang yong zhe yi bei zi qu ai ni
Cong jin yi hou ni hui shi suo you xing fu de li you

Ai qing shi chang zui mei zui yuan de lu xing
Yan tu yu ji ni ning ou er zu ai wo men de qian jin
Gan dao ni de ti wen zai wo huai li xiang yang guang he xu
Qiao miao de rong hua wo de bu an ding
Bu ke si yi zheng ming wo ai ni de li you Wo... duo me zi ran

Forever Love..Forever Love
Wo zhi xiang yong wo zhe yi bei zi qu ai ni
Cong jin yi hou ni hui shi suo you xing fu de li you

Ni gan dong de yan jing
Wo chen mo de sheng yin
Fang fu jiu shi zui hao de zheng ming
Jiu rang wo zai shuo yi ci, I love you Oh...
Zhi dao yong yuan...

Oh...Forever Love..Forever Love
Wo zhi xiang yong wo zhe yi bei zi qu ai ni
Cong jin yi hou ni hui shi suo you xing fu de li you
Forever Love Forever Love Forever Love

i never did let go

never did
dont know if i ever well
feeling very lost
and did i make the right choice?
is it all back to haunt me?
i probably won't forget it, ever
no matter what happens
i wish all the best
know that its true
still not letting go
but i'll be me and...

nate

Can anyone hear me?

I'm praying pretty hard that this'll be the right decision... for what? To spearhead an evangelistic program with my classmate - shimona in Singapore. We got this idea since we're in our 'public evangelism' practicum where we will be doing public evangelism in our own hometowns!

What's the plan like for now? Here's a rundown of the ideas that we have so far:

The "advertisement" - beta version 1.0
This is the possible banner ad/poster/leaflet for promotion and advertising for this program - we'll also use Hope 107 (and insert their logo in) if they'll help advertise this for us! *yay*



Big Idea: A 2-Night seeker friendly program for people between 15-30 years of age with original music (unplugged), covers, skits, an inspiring sermonette and worship session.

Theme: Can anyone hear me? [you're just a small voice in a big world... who's listening?]

Dates: Hopefully... 19th and 20th August (Fri-Sat)

Venue: We're thinking of Jurong SDA Church's social/function hall/room.
Time: 7pm to 8pm

Followup Plans: Guest Welcome cards will be handed out to each one and they will be encouraged to fill them out before leaving the hall/room. The youth from the church will be encouraged to spend the next 5 - 10 minutes or more to mix around with someone he/she has never met before *A GUEST!* because chances are that the guests would simply leave early if no one approaches them after the program. Youth Leaders and Cell Group Leaders will be given the task of following up with the guests.

Shimona and myself will be "preaching" if this goes thru and also singing songs that we've written, plus covers.

Whether this actually happens or not isn't so much a concern to us right now though we both (shimona and myself) hope that it'll happen - what's important is that God's supporting us and that this will work seamlessly with God's plans for our church! GO GO GO!

Early Mornings

Wow... i've woken up early all week - almost! And to think that I'd wake up at 5:30am this morning when I've NO classes... i seriously do wonder why!

Lets see now... what am I supposed to do today:

7am: Breakfast at cafe
8am: Head down to my office - Yeah I have my OWN office - keys, computer, AIRCON! hehehe :) The advantages of being the yearbook officer - even the president of the student council doesn't have an office. :P
9am: Leave office, head to library to read
10am: Assembly
11am: Lunch or Read
1pm: Return to dorm

Rest of the afternoon: NO IDEA.

Well, that's pretty routine.

Shimona and I are thinking of doing a program in Singapore when we're back - acoustic worship session perhaps. Unsure yet... it's in the planning! Hope to see ya'll soon!

Sean: Metal Toilet Roll! Woohoo :P

Trud: Hope you're getting well!

OMG! Toilet paper for the mother-in-law!

Hahaha :P enjoy... i just HAD TO POST IT!

Photo-Sniper

Amazing stuff eh? hehehe actually quite cool! Lookz like a gun :P ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooh BANG BANG BANG! UR DEAD :P

Ambitions <-- check back in a few years!

Things to achieve in the next 5 years (I'm 22 now)

1) Be in the process of planting a new church
2) Move the church on musically and spiritually
3) Get married
4) Be happily married
5) Be an accomplished photographer
6) Be an accomplished musician
7) Be just who God wants me to be :D

Check back in a few years!!!

DSLR dust problem? Here's a solution!

For those of you who've got dust problems on your CMOS/CCD, here's a solution that I've come up with - it's inexpensive and can be done by ANYONE! :)

- Nathaniel

DIY Sensor Cleaning Tutorial

*Disclaimer: I have done this successfully but I will not guarantee (along with other companies who sell their DIY sensor cleaning products) that you will not damage your camera. Please exercise common-sense and follow the instructions carefully before attempting to clean your camera's sensor.

Before you do this, please:
1) Clean your hands
2) Have everything you need ready: Your camera, Blower, A filter, Fresh Batteries/External Powersource, Cable Release *for D100/S2Pro etc, Cleaning Fluid/Chemist's Methanol, Lint Free Lens Tissues, Scotch Tape (or anything of its equivalent), Your Home-made sensor swab stick & Yourself.

Figure 1:

Choose a material that isn't too hard or rough. I've chosen a piece of laminated cardboard from a 'Glade' box. Notice that it's smooth and folded. I recommend using a folded piece of laminated card like what I've used. Why? The lamination means it can resist the cleaning fluid - it won't become soft on contact with the liquid. It's also stiff but not rough - the laminated side is really smooth and straight; just what we need!

Figure 2:

I have cut the card to size - approx 22mm x 55mm. The top is tapered and measures exactly at 20mm.

Figure 3:

Take a piece of lint-free lens tissue and cut it so you get a piece that's about 40mm wide. It can be wider but only slightly. Fold it in half.

Figure 4:

Attach the lens tissue to your cut out card. I've used Scotch Magic Tape to secure the lens tissue to the card. If you wish to reuse the card (which i do), stick the tape 1/2 way around the side of the lens tissue so that you will be able to remove it easily later. Don't tape it all around. Ensure that the tissue is secure.

Figure 5:

Take lens cleaning fluid or Chemist's methanol (i've used both and they work just as well) and apply very very sparingly onto the tip of your 'swab'. You might need to repeat this several times to get it right and not put too much fluid on it. Too much fluid will tear your lens tissue.

Figure 6:

Place your camera on a non-abrasive surface and remove the bodycap or lens. For cameras without mirror lock-up to clean the camera, set your camera to 'BULB' mode and use a cable release. ENSURE THAT YOUR BATTERY POWER IS FULL OR USE AN EXTERNAL POWER SOURCE! Lift up your camera body and blow out any dust that could be on the inside. A few powerful blows on your sensor would be good too, to remove as much dust as possible before wiping it down.

Figure 7:


*Before you attempt this step, you might want to 'TESTDRIVE' your new sensor swab on a filter. Hold the swab firmly and start in one smooth stroke from LEFT to RIGHT without stopping or moving back. How did you do? Once you're able to do it without leaving streaks behind, you're ready to move on! PS! This is also a good time to see if your swab is level!

Take your wet swab and start from the left. Hold the swab firmly and as you bring it across the sensor, apply light pressure as you sweep across.

Figure 8:

If you have done it right, there will be no streaking. DO NOT USE YOUR SWAB AGAIN - REPLACE THE LENS TISSUE before attempting to pass the swab across your sensor again. If you don't replace the tissue, you might get more dust on your sensor or scratch it if there's anything abrasive on the sensor or the swab.

You now have a clean sensor! Cheers!

Photographs & Tutorial by Nathaniel Tan - ParkertR

Samurai X - Kenshin

I know why ppl love this cartoon! I just watched it... a few episodes of it and im HOOKED on it! This anime cartoon really is nice :) plus, it's full of values too! woohoo~ im a fan of "Himura Kenshin" :P hehehehe lalalalalala

Time-lapse photography: A study of my journey in my sleep.

Some of you might find this hilarious or even outright rediculous but i find it really intriguing.

Watching how i sleep and knowing how i sleep. Ever wonder what you do in your sleep? Anything really weird or unique? I decided to find out for myself with time-lapse photography. I timed my camera to take pictures on 30minute intervals and here are images, 2 hours apart from 12:30am in the morning till 4:30am in the morning.



I notice that the stuff near my head was slowly pushed back to my feet! haha... notice that red heart with arms? It was at my head when i went to bed... landed up near my bum! hahaha

Well, indeed this has showed me a few new things about myself :)

time-lapse photography

im doing this tonight - a shot of me every 30mins. a study of nathaniel and how he sleeps. yeap! have my camera set up and on time-lapse mode on my computer.

the camera's hooked to my computer, timed for a shot every 30mins and downloaded to the computer when a shot is taken. this is gonna be interesting :P

check back for pix. haha

Shutter-Bug Baton!

Okay! I kinda had nothing to do since it's raining rediculously heavily outside right now....

1) What kind of camera do you currently own? Webcam? Point and shoot? Film SLR? Digital SLR?

I've got a Nikon D100 DSLR at the moment.

2) What got you into photography?

I loved holding this thing called a camera and i simply loved taking pictures! Capturing moments on film!! :) so cool! There was once when i was really young... i'd put lego men and buildings, arrange them then take photos of them leh! hahaha so cute!!! That was when i was in primary school i think. So when the chance came for me to own a real camera... wooohoooo i jumped on it!

3) How do you rank yourself as a photographer? Beginner, Intermediate, Advanced, Professional?

I'd probably be in the Advanced stage :)

4) Which is your favourite brand of cameras?

It's GOTTA BE NIKON! - the heart of the image :) hehehehehe

5) Do you have a website where you have your works on?

Yes I do! You can visit it by clicking right here!

6) Now... hit a few other people with this Shutter-Bug Baton!

1. expiredyoghurt
2. faithy
3. seanygoh

A quiz!

My friend Faith made a quiz that you can find...hereyou may not know her, but just go try it! It's kinda fun! hehehe :D

oh yeah... my brother's a genius... he scored for his ISAT - 98th percentile for some reasoning thing and 100th percentile for some other qualitative reasoning or something of that sort. way to go Ben!!

Literati Baton!

I finally got round to checking my yahoo mail and guess what! faithy sent me a baton! ahhhh! hehe filling it out now despite a very broken little pinky on my left hand...


1) Total number of books I’ve owned:
okay, i just started reading again and i've got a grand total of... *counts* 13 books at the moment! hurrah!

2) The last book I bought:
bought 'the exile' at terminal 1 of changi international airport, singapore before i flew back to thailand just a couple of weeks back.

3) The last book I read:
"Contest" by Matthew Reilly

excellent fast paced action book! finished its 300 pages in a day! heehee

4) 5 books that mean a lot to me:

The purpose driven life - rick warren

The purpose driven youth ministry - doug fields

Preaching with spiritual passion - Ed Rowell

I kissed dating goodbye - Joshua Harris :somewhat controversial... but i learnt from it anyways.

D100 user manual :P

5) Tag 5 people and have them fill this out on their blogs:

not yet... heehee

finger in pain!

my little finger is now double it's normal size - it's swollen! i was playing basketball yesterday and in my second game, when things were going all nicely... bam! my finger gets crushed by the ball while i try to intercept a pass. why!

went to bed last night in pain and woke up this morning... still in pain. i've gotta take pictures later during assembly too... why God? so painful na................!

my dreams

ever dreamt of what you wanna be when u grow up?
i'm wondering what i wanna do myself... it's a tough choice, really. i feel that i wanna do what im working at right now... but i wanna do something else too! it's like choosing ur destined job vs choosing your dream job! heehee
geez - its like i can't make up my mind - yes i can't make up my mind! maybe i could fuse the two jobs together and get my 'dream' job? who knows... do two things? nah, i couldnt have my feet on two boats at the same time... i'd probably split and fall into the water; just a matter of time.

hmmmm *THINKS*

life - death - me

to have, to give, to be able to is a gift
to see a smile, feel a touch is heaven
pure ecstacy comes with another's pleasure
to try and please another is honorable
to accept defeat gracefully holds utmost respect
when everything has come to naught after much work
when the hopes of ecstacy are crushed to bits
when the trying seems to be foolish work
look around for joys that will make you smile again
a little smile from anyone brightens even the darkest day
bring joy to my life
a little gloomy sad retarded life i'm living
light a candle, let the little flame dance around me
till i am engulfed in it; then maybe i wont have to worry any more
flame burn brighter, brighten my days
i dont feel the heat, because there is none
i dont feel the pain, they've been taken away
life.
to live it to the fullest
to live it without regrets
to live it without worries
to live it just for a while
to live it to make others smile
to live it and not cause pain
to end it to end it all

- nathaniel -