patience...

a full day of doing nothing but thinking - makes me wonder if i'm becoming a really dry boring person. so many things i'd love to blog about but then again, i'd rather not. what i can say is, i really regretted saying some stuff today and i've learnt that i've got to be more patient when i need answers. more patient when things around me seem to be going too slowly. more patient when i want things at an instant. more patient when i make decisions...

more often than not, i believe that i'm a patient person... fine - i've put up with so-and-so for so long... isn't that patience? well, from a selfish point of view... yes, but in reality, no... because i was impatient - waiting for my patience to run out. hahaha... sounding like philosophy?

if i'm growing and learning, i really think that this year alone, i've grown up quite a bit. little immature nate is always gonna be a little immature... but he's learning, growing and maturing! *hoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!* back to patience... i think that patience can be a virtue that all of us strive to have. i know that i certainly need some patience in my life. i've got to be able to wait out a little longer... lemme give you an example.

i was recently tossed into this big thing where there was an information overload. it involved myself and a few other people and man... my head was simply racing around trying to figure out what the hell was going on! i didn't take the time to realise that my brain and all that information is just like a clear lake that's stormy. when it's stormy, you can't see anything that's below the choppy water... u've gotta let the storm ride over, let the rain drip it's last drop, let the wind let off and the waters calm down till it is as clear as glass - it's only then that you're able to see what lies beneath.

if only i'd realized this earlier, things would have been so different in my life. people would react differently to my words and actions. i would have made many many different decisions that have already shaped my life. thankfully i've alreay realized that i need a little more patience in my life. patience is a virtue. patience can be achieved. patience and make the difference in my life. patience is what i want... now i've got to be patient and know that patience takes time to achieve :D